People actually never valued what i was talking and thinking about.

They don't even try to understand. They never question, they never ask about.

Somethimes they accuse me of something i said but in reality they just didn't understand intention the first time.

People are different. We all come from somewhere with legit proof of argument. "Walk in my shoes" is the term of choice and the meaning by default.

People search for entertainment and forget why they are here as a constant loop until they break character

I don't care about the sats i recieved in the past. The real value is when comments are sliding into the feed. And there are almost none

Mistakes are there to be made. Everything has a reason and since i went away from social media my success rises. Comunity is not made by agenda or belief.. i understand that it is made by shared actions and the closer i looked i started noticing people who take similiar actions who align with my frequency.

My channel is a diary of a person who had to undo years of false social beliefs and felt sick of all of that.

Love or hate what i say/said. It is my way expressing myself and i don't mind getting hate or silence for it. Better authentic then ordinary and focused at the wrong stuff.

Back then i said sorry because i tried to tell you guys that i understood that the accusing dark place inside my head exists. Today i understand that the dark place in my head is not my fault and not my real character and still i am performing like this because it feels emotionally right. Driven by pure hatred i gained from the individuals who dumped their mental shit on me.

I am not mad in terms of crazy, but mad in terms of angry. Who cares anyway? Read through my profile. Learn how to see like me. See if you can have empathie. Not to say "i am sorry" but to maybe acknowledge what my heart really tries to tell the world. The story behind it all, the agenda behind my on and off, the connection between hard crittiques and philosophical and maybe complex words and songs

Its not important but to write this down actually is. It is important that this reference is set in stone. Life is beautiful. Doesnt matter how broken you are. Life gives you the exact thing so you can grow into your best potential. You just have to be aware and learn about yourself.

Ordinary talk bores me. The root of it all. Transactions made neuron to neuron as energetic signals. A tree, a root, a map of all that a human makes a human, when a seedling grows into a tree.

To you reading all of this, I wish you the best